Sunday, March 7, 2010

so as i was saying

before i lost track. once i really felt like i lost john, i knew i had to change. i would keep telling him, i need to lose you in order to be driven to change. otherwise if you don't leave me, i'll stay the way i am. and i knew i was hurting him, but i couldn't help it. so once we got back together the next day, i was like a completely different gf. it felt nice. it's still sometimes a struggle cause he still sometimes doesn't listen. being in a relationship is learning about compromise. it can't always been one of the partner's ways. it has to go both ways in order for it to function properly. i can actually utilize that knowledge now. i've always known it, but as long as john was ok with everything being my way. i kept it that way. but now things are different. i really see a future for us :)

4 comments:

kaesi said...

omgosh that's exactly how i felt about my ex-bf. like.. in order for me to change we have to not be together. lol ... & yea.. u are absolutely right about compromise. .... but sometimes i feel like.. screw compromising.. if u wanna be with me, everything has to be MY WAY! hahaha .. poor lorenz.. jk. !

sars said...

hahaha i still have my days where i'm a spoiled brat but i try to make up for it by being more affectionate towards him. cause all john really needs is attention. haha

sars said...

you and lo seem to have such a healthy relationship. i'm actually really jealous. that's what im aiming for with john. we need to try and be more open minded to each other's hobbies.

kaesi said...

aww at least u know what needs to be fixed and u work on it! gosh i wish i was more like u! i feel like i'm really cold hearted sometimes~ and i feel like i can't work on anything. X_X