wooooww

i haven't blogged in forevs. ok, so my 25th bday is a few weeks from today and i'm totally excited about it. i've never been big on celebrating my bday but i honestly need a reason to go out and get effed up. there is honestly not a damn thing i could complain about or even wish for because i have my health, family and friends. i've been sooo blessed throughout my life that i'm just so thankful for making it another yearrr. for turning 25, i'm pretty content at where i am in life. i have 2 amazing jobs and working w/ the most fabulous people. i still live on my own and i'm gradually learning how to manage my money. all i need now is to save up for a car, i've been wanting one for the longest time but i keep getting distracted by clothes shoes and more clothes and more shoesssss. ugh it has honestly become an addiction. my daily routine in the morning would be to buy almost a complete outfit online. i'd get that done before i even have my breakfast and coffee. whatevs.

2010

2011

ok so like

i've used this time i've had alone to really think about what kind of person i am. i try to look at both sides, how i see myself, and how the world sees me. i'm pretty satisfied with who i am as an individual, but there's always room for growth. one thing i really need to work on is my temper. that's something that i've always said would never change because i've always justified it as being part of who i am. but then i started to think, why do i want to be someone who gets mad all the time for something so petty.

might as well

update this thing before i go into work. so let's seeeee. i've been ridiculously busy with two jobs, maintaining a healthy relationship with my bf and family, fonzi, and enjoying my life. uhm that's pretty much it. i don't really have much time for anything else.

yup, he's a cutie forsure <3

so madly

in love with my best friend <3

then 2009

now 2011

it's been a long time coming

wow, i haven't blogged in forevs. i've just been so busy juggling two jobs, john, spending time with family and fonzi. i think a lot's happened since the last time i posted something. well for one, john and i are back together. things are better than ever :) we both realized that if we wanted this relationship to workout, we both a had a lot of changing to do. not gonna lie, he was way more willing than i was. i think i'm just naturally too stubborn to change. but so far things are working out great :) uhmm i'm still struggling to keep the weight i've lost off. my weight fluctuates so damn easily, it's annoying and a blessing at the same time. i just wish my metabolism would permanently stay fast. i hate working out and eating healthy. i have to avoid so many foods that i love. but at least i give myself the weekends to induldge in things like korean bbq. my favorite :) hhahahhaa. hmm here's a remimder of what i used to look like. hahha

BEFORE

AFTER

hmmm

i can't believe how long i've had this freakin' blog. it's fun going back through old posts and pictures. good times forsure.

i'm so lame sometimes &hearts

yoga!

i wanna start doing it again so badlyyyy. i haven't done it since like sophomore year of college. i wanna be limber. ugh i need to start going to the gym more consistently also. i just wanna be fit and toned already. i wish it wasn't so hard and tedious. gahhhhhh. i hate how everything i want to eat is so bad for me :( it makes losing weight so much harder. asl;dfkjas;ldfjkalsdfkjal;df



...i wanna look like this alreadyyyy!

amazing weekend!

i really can't get over how fun last weekend was. i wish we took more pictures, but here's a few.

john&anthony

anthony<3

BONJIE!

BIRTHDAY GIRL!

JOSEPH!

ughhh

learning how to budget and manage my money is so much harder than i thought. i really need to start saving. spending is so much more fun than saving :( if i stop going out to eat, shopping, and whatever else i spend my money on, i could easily pay off all my bills in a couple of months. i just need to learn how to become responsible. sometimes i wish i still lived at home so i can go back to being REALLY spoiled, but then i come to the realization that being independent is so much more satisfying. we all know i'm not completely independent cause my dad still pays for the big stuff, but overall, i like to think i'm doing well for myself. :)

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i'm bored at work again and there really isn't much to do right now. i've got some downtime so i thought i'd update this thing...

well let's see, lately i've been trying to go out as much as possible because of how "hard" i work during the week. i need some ME time. i really need to get a facial...

story of my life!

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i've got time to kill

right before my shift ends so i figured i'd just blog about something random. so the super cute guy at work quit :( i have no idea why, but he did mention that he goes to my gym...so i might have to try and find him there. haha just kidding. seriously though. that's creepy. hahah but they already started interviewing new candidates to fill in his position and one of the guys that came in today wasn't bad looking. but def not as cuuute. :( hmm what else. i'm feeling really good for some reason. maybe it's cause i lost all the weight that i wanted to :) life is amazing right now. i have absolutely nothing to complain about. i feel like everything is the way it should be. :) even though i'm not dating anyone, i'm totally content with where i am at with the person i guess i'm "talking" to. we both don't want anything serious, and we both don't expect anything from each other. i think it's perfect because with my busy schedule, i barely even have anytime for myself. how the hell am i going to have time for a boyfriend?! it's nice cause he gives me just the right amount of attention to keep me satisfied and also coming back for moreee. haha i was telling one of my drivers about this the other day and he said he was surprised because most girls won't be ok with what i have. other girls demand a relationship. ughh. relationships. nooo thankssss. right now, this is everything i need. :)

ok seriously

i have so much energy right now. it's probably from sitting here and doing nothinggg. so there's this boy i kinda like. he's really interesting and makes me laugh like nobody's business. that's all. i was gonna write more, but i got lazy lol

hmm what else

...so i've lost 30 lbs. haha that's kind of a big deal i guess. people who haven't seen me in a while are really surprised cause they're like omg. you lost so much weight blah blah blah. thanks assholes, i don't know why you beezys didn't tell me i was fat to begin with lol. but yeah i feel so much better about myself. i fit into clothes better and i have more options. even though i did it the unhealthy way, i'm just glad i lost all that weight. now i have to get rid of so many clothes cause they don't fit me anymore :( o well it's a great excuse to go shopping :)

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someone brought to my attention that i haven't updated my blog in a while. so let me update you all on what i've been up to.

first. i got that job that i wanted so badly. i've been here for about 4 weeks now and i absolutely LOVEEE ittt. we just hired a bunch of new people and one of the new guys is suppper cuuute. he brought me a bag of chips today, i think i'm in loveee. haha just kidding. he's totally nice though. hmm one of my boss's really seems to have taken a liking to me. he's always complementing my outfits and how i look that day. it's nice. haha but whatever. i've already gotten in trouble for wearing skirts too short, but he doesn't seem to mind. haha. let's see. ups is still the same. at one point having both jobs really took a toll on me, but i'm ok now. i was like having panick attacks and nervous breakdowns every hour. haha it was badddd. what else...my birthday just passed last week and it was so amazing. thanks to a new friend i've made :). hmm so i'm going to vegas this weekend and i'm sooo excited. it's gonna be so much fun. i can already tell. haha. gonna meet up with a friend there and it's gonna be good times for sure :)