the realization that i am terrible at blogging. i pretty much just write about whatever's on my mind, only to look back it years from now. as i peruse through old blog posts, i see that not much has really changed in my habits. i'm still terrible w/ money and a gluttonous piece of shit. i spend my money on useless things that i tire of very quickly. i've also come to accept that i will never be a size 2 and i'm ok w/ that.