i know this is going to sound so lame. but thinking about how much i love john really makes me want to cry. i put him through so much fucking shit and he still manages to look past all that and treat me like a queen. for my bday john really went all out. he booked us a flight for sf and got the MOST amazing hotel. we're staying at the st. regis in the astor suite. i just viewed pictures of the hotel and it is off the chain. i really can't wait.