before i lost track. once i really felt like i lost john, i knew i had to change. i would keep telling him, i need to lose you in order to be driven to change. otherwise if you don't leave me, i'll stay the way i am. and i knew i was hurting him, but i couldn't help it. so once we got back together the next day, i was like a completely different gf. it felt nice. it's still sometimes a struggle cause he still sometimes doesn't listen. being in a relationship is learning about compromise. it can't always been one of the partner's ways. it has to go both ways in order for it to function properly. i can actually utilize that knowledge now. i've always known it, but as long as john was ok with everything being my way. i kept it that way. but now things are different. i really see a future for us :)
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omgosh that's exactly how i felt about my ex-bf. like.. in order for me to change we have to not be together. lol ... & yea.. u are absolutely right about compromise. .... but sometimes i feel like.. screw compromising.. if u wanna be with me, everything has to be MY WAY! hahaha .. poor lorenz.. jk. !
hahaha i still have my days where i'm a spoiled brat but i try to make up for it by being more affectionate towards him. cause all john really needs is attention. haha
you and lo seem to have such a healthy relationship. i'm actually really jealous. that's what im aiming for with john. we need to try and be more open minded to each other's hobbies.
aww at least u know what needs to be fixed and u work on it! gosh i wish i was more like u! i feel like i'm really cold hearted sometimes~ and i feel like i can't work on anything. X_X
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