so i keep going

back and forth on whether or not i want my own apt. at this point i think i can totally afford one, but do i really want to invest that money on something i don't really get to keep. yeah sure it's the price i pay for ultimate freedom but shouldn't i invest my money more wisely? ehh if the right apt comes along at the right price, i'll know what to do then. at this point if i really want to move out, i'm going to need a room mate. and there isn't really anyone out there that i'd be willing to live with that's financially stable enough to move out of home. everyone keeps saying to live with john, but that's a big no no. i think it'd be fun living together at first, but i just don't think i'd be able to do it. first of all our parents would not allow it and second, if we did get married, i wouldn't have anything to look forward to.